Thursday, 27 September 2012
Okay today is really hard because for once I actually don't know how many calories I've eaten. I've eatin healthily, but not knowing still really freaks me out. I want to purge but I'm proud of myself that I haven't. At lunch just now at school with 3 classmates, I basically told them I'm anorexic (without using that word). They were just talking so much about weight and food and stuff... I couldn't help myself. Soon we'll be studying chaper 49 in my clin 2 class (which I've already read) which is all about diet, food, nutrition, etc. I know it's going to make me want to restrict. I shouln't restrict because I need energy etc. for school and work, but I DESPERATELY want to lose weight.